Its a time of struggling and learning what your body can and can’t do when you have not long been diagnosed with CFS. I never understood fully how hard it was, from listening to friends who have it, but now I know, Tiredness and fatigue should be written as exhaustion, Low mood should be written as a dark place with anxiety and depression. Not being able to cook and do the things you did, should be written as the hardest thing and so I could go on. However, as I’ve got very low with this, I suddenly felt God put this on my heart.” Its a time to turn this around for good. A time to sit, to rest, to grow, to listen, to reach out to others, to cry, to pray, to meditate on Gods Word and just simply be” In fact, it remined me of a couple of other people that had mentioned to me as well to just simply be with Him.

So I thought…… I cant do much at times like this as I’m sure others cant either but we can sit with our Heavenly Father and just be. He knows how you are feeling He knows and understands that you may not be able to stay long at the moment but come and be, just simply be with Him. He is with us always but taking that time to just rest in your special place with God will help so much. He cares for you, He understands and He will meet with you, maybe just in a small way at the moment but as time goes on this will get better I am sure. We will realise how much we have grown in this time of darkness. I felt, as this only started a short while ago for me, that He seems so silent, a million miles away but I think this may have been because I’ve been struggling with a lot this last year and CFS was the ‘icing on the cake’. CFS drains you and isolates you and you have no energy etc and I don’t know about you but my time with God has not been that good recently because of all this. Not because I have stopped believing but because its been a physically and mentally hard time. However, I believe, the light will come again. He is a good God, a faithful God and He is with us always. Even though we may not see it now He is working. We will know His love, peace and wonderful presence shining through the darkness. Heaven may seem silent for now but just simply be and when the time is right He will speak to us again but for now just rest with Him. Simply be, as He understands. He will bring beauty out of the ashes and give us a garment of Praise Keep looking, keep trusting He is a heartbeat away.